Im burning hate,
fuelled by desire.
Im just killing time now.
Pure confusion, confiscation, but i know what i want.
Can i have both and be called alive.. ?

I just want both these.
So selfishly im thinking now !
But there is a compromise that holds me back with open palm,
so im waiting, wishing.
Im looking at the possibility,
and then i'll run to it !

I get a sickly feeling !
When i remember it,
when i see it happening all around me.
When i hear what gets spoken.
Ignorance.

I picture the darkness,
the one that gave such joy,
the one that was perceived.
Perceived as causing pain.
How wrong they were.

And then it gets me thinking,
what has grown within my concreted chest.
What i've annihilated in me.

All we can really see is rubble,
and i stumble over it constantly.
I breathe in dust and choke.
My mind thinks both are beautiful.
And all my heat feels is.....

RuInEd...

-(A)-