Weeeellll. Um yeah has been a while since i even put a journal entry up. At the mom im thinking im pretty depressed. My ex and i have been good friends since our break up 2 months ago, some would say a lil to close and we thought so to. She got a bf and well as if that cant make it hard for me. So yeah we decided that we should try and just be friends and nothing more. Christ i never thought id have to tell her not to do so many things just so i can try and suppress my feelings. No more hugs, no kisses on the cheek, no talking bout old times, no fun. Im just hidding my feelings for her in the hope that maybe she can get along with her life and live a lil bit better. I just hate the fact that ive had to give up so much in life..... sigh FCKN CUNTS! I wana cry, i wana scream out at the world and judge it for wat its taken from me. Im sick of pain, hurt, sick of love and the bad feelings it brings. Im so pissed and angry and looking for someone to blame when i think i have only myself. who knows. fuck it im gunna write a couple of emails and go to bed. Peace all.